“ From the Hands of the One Who Loves You Best For Jeanann Verlee This is a story about the dogs in my family, but not about how we named them after local bodies of water or even about how when I was 20 I finally realized that only WASPs did that, that the rest of the world named their dogs whatever they wanted. This is a story about the dogs in my family, but not about how we cut a pound of cheddar cheese into little cubes whenever we took Hudson to the vet, or, as he came to think, The Place Where I Get Cheese! Oh, the things you will let a lab coat do so long as you get cheddar cheese fed to you from the hands of the one who loves you best. Neither is this the story about how my father dug graves for all our dogs at the family farm months before any of them died just to insure they could be buried in the frozen ground if they died in the middle winter; how we joked that they wondered what the hole was for. I feel like someone just walked on my grave. Like it might even have been me. We actually buried Winchester on the morning of my sister’s wedding: Dearly beloved, what a beautiful sight. Wedding to the left. Doggie funeral to the right. But this isn’t a story about that. This is a story about dogs and chocolate, which they love, though it can kill them. Who doesn’t crave the taste of their poison? How, when the time came to put them down, we gathered and shared with each dog chocolate like a rich dark sacrament. Even then we joked that each dog knew exactly what the sweetness meant. Not the chocolate! Come on! I’m only 105! Jeanann, this is chocolate for Callisto. Break the bar like bread, and let her eat from the hands of she who loves her best. Make of your broken heart a dog: bounding, joyful, warm, chasing rabbits in a field.
